Slowly, I’m losing it. So comfortable, so assured, whether by people around me or by myself. Swimming against the tide is tough, very very tough indeed. You can’t swim against the tide of the society, can you? You’re part of it. It shapes your view, it makes you into the kind of person you are. Even if you adore the culture of other societies, they just become memories, part of those non applicable customs that you know of but will never incorporate into your daily life. Such is life. I am learning new things, but the society is still leading me, albeit no longer by my nose. Such is life. I lament at how the new friendships I’ve forged are unsustainable and I dream of being a superwoman being able to fly all over the world to develop the friendships further. I know everything needs maintenance. As each day goes by, it’s just another day without much thinking or reflection about the past, about the forgotten possibility, about things that thrilled me and new skills I’ve gained. But such is life.

— my thoughts after spending 15 minutes on facebook seeing familiar names because they were your classmates, schoolmates, friends’ friends etc etc but yet feeling very distant.